Hmmmm....

[kellifer]

Snagged from fleshflutter and a bunch of other places...

If you could force me to write anything, what would it be?

Now remember, last time I did something similar to this someone came up with something I am now writing... *smacks forehead*

Now for something completely different - my cat only sleeps on top of the television when I'm watching CSI. She is completely uninterested any other time.

Comments

[dolimir-k.livejournal.com]

I'd love to have you write Sam figuring out a way to break Robot!Dean's deal (dying when Sam turns 25).

[kellifer-fic.livejournal.com]

I waaaaant to but I also really want to leave them with hope, without it resolved, with them perpetually searching for the Blue Fairy with the assumption that they will live happily ever after.

[spae.livejournal.com]

Is that how most people feel at the end of that fic? I just don't see the hope in it at all - because Dean doesn't have forever to search, and Sam's making it clear that he's got limited time before he heads off to college and the future accorded to a real boy.

Personally I think it ends tragically, with Sam choosing to go to college, no longer needing his Big Brother and quite happy to leave him, just like canon - and the blue fairy being a pipe dream to salve Sam's conscience when Dean's time runs out. I thought you had planned the way the harsh finality of Dean's situation (and the eerily close parallel between the fic and canon) was brought to light - and don't get me wrong, the bitter pill made for an awesome unflinching memorable ending, but it made me cry and cry.

[kellifer-fic.livejournal.com]

I really like that different people take different things away from a fic. I've had some fics where people think they are crack-y fun and others think the same fic is devastating.

In all honesty, the ending for them is murky for me as well. I want it to end happily but there is definitely a scope for it not to go that way at all. I didn't want it to be definite because I think it would lessen the story I had in mind and the particular story I wanted to tell somehow.

I don't want to think of Dean alone after all he goes through, slowly winding down and yearning for the boy that left him behind but... it's possible and it makes my heart hurt to think of this Dean like that.

Maybe I didn't finish it because sometimes my stories end the way they want to without a lot of intervention from me (or at least that's how I sometimes feel) and if it organically went that way I would have to write it to not cheapen it and then this Dean would be left forever gathering dust and sorrow.

Or slowly winding down to the inevitable end...

[spae.livejournal.com]

Aye, I can see how having it set down in black and white would be traumatic! For author, reader and Dean! I do like where you've ended it, it fits the narrative perfectly - I just don't envision a happy ending because of my childhood trauma! ;)

Thank you! For the story and the thoughtful response.