Decision Time...

[kellifer]

I think at this point I've decided to drop out of the SPN Big Bang.

Ugh, of all the ficathons I've ever done, I've only ever had to drop out of one and have usually been a backup more often than not. It's weird for me to not finish something but I'm just not... enjoying it. I still *want* to write this story and I don't want to come to resent it and have it be such a source of stress and worry to me that I just can't bear to look at it.

*sad face*

I think that's why I'm feeling so blocked at the moment. The prospect of this huge thing that I just haven't really made a dent in is basically bottle-necking everything else I want to write to a point where nothing will come out. I mean, I got all these lovely crossover and five things fic prompts and still zip.

With this off my plate, I have officially nothing due at the moment, which is actually a really good feeling and may be just what I need. Also, I'm thinking I want to receive my Sweet Charity prompt while having a clean slate.

Comments

[deirdre-c.livejournal.com]

It's all about The Fun, honey, so don't beat yourself up because you drop the Big Bang project. It's not like an exchange where you've promised someone something. You're not letting anyone down.

In fact, if it frees you up to work on all the other projects you've been blocked on, it's a huge WIN! (speaking for myself, of course. *greedygreedygreedy*)

Do what makes you happy. It's all good.

[kellifer-fic.livejournal.com]

Hehehee... thankyou hon! *snuggles you*

I know... that was my main thing... it's not an exchange so the only person I'm really letting down is myself.

I'm hoping this will unclog me and there will be floods and floods of fic. :D

[estei.livejournal.com]

Good for you, sweetie. It takes a lot more courage to admit that something is not working than to just trudge along anyway.

[kellifer-fic.livejournal.com]

Thanks hon! I just... signed up when I could still write at work and losing that, I didn't realise just how much writing time I would lose in the long run. I'm just not going to do it justice at this point.

*hugs*

[insane-no-baka.livejournal.com]

Aww...*petpet*...but if it doesn't make you happy, there's no sense doing it. After all, you don't want to put in SO much work and then resent/hate it right? And there's always next year? :P And more time means....more fic? *hopesgreedyhopes*

[kellifer-fic.livejournal.com]

Hehehehee... that's the plan. *smiles*

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

[calijirl5150.livejournal.com]

It sounds so wonderful, please comeback to it at a later date. Just frell the deadline & write as it comes. & I know it will you always come through w/awesome fics !!!

::bats Sammy Puppy Dog Eyes of Doom::

Re: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

[kellifer-fic.livejournal.com]

It's definitely the deadline that was getting to me and the wordcount. This story might be finished in 10k or 15k and it's okay to do that now... *smiles*

Re: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

[calijirl5150.livejournal.com]

Oh "I love you , let me count the ways"

Cover your ears ' SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

[maxinemayer.livejournal.com]

I agree with the comment above made by deirdre-c that it's all about the fun! If it's not fun anymore, don't write it! If it's just the deadline that's getting you down, then write it slowly, at your own pace, and publish when you can.

Hugs!
Love, max

[kellifer-fic.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the kind words... *hugs you back*

[oxoniensis.livejournal.com]

I know exactly what you mean about being blocked by a story you're trying to force out - I'm fairly sure that's been my major reason for being blocked this last couple of months. It can be so frustrating, but I think you're doing the right thing, even if it's sad to give up a challenge.

[pheebs1.livejournal.com]

I think you are doing the right thing hon. It's all in fun and if it's stressing you out then best to leave it. come back to it some other time!

HUGS YOU

[megsjedi.livejournal.com]

It's perfectly ok for you to opt out, hon. When everything gets to be too much, it's time to sit back and take care of yourself for a while, rather than burn out.

[dotfic.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I know how you feel. I'm actually making decent progress on mine, but it's more more hurry hurry hurry than getting lost in the story and don't know if I can finish by May 1. It's different than writing a shorter fic for a challenge or exchange. I've decided the best thing is to ignore the deadline and if I don't make it, it's not failure. The story will get written either way.