Not writing - hyperventilating

[kellifer]

So, with 10 days left of the Big Bang deadline I will need to knock out over 1k a day to make it. Yesterday I opened the file to work on it and spent 2 hours cleaning up bits that I'd already written because I AM INSANE and it's only the first draft that's due so it doesn't matter that it's a mess (not that it is because GGG has already cleaned up 5k of it because she's an angel).

/breathes into paper bag

I just keep having to tell myself that I can do this. I've written stuff LONGER than this in a shorter time. I'm not sure why Big Bang is such a mental barrier to me.

/determined face