FAIL OF EPIC PROPORTIONS...

[kellifer]

Now my work has blocked Google docs which... argh! Now I have even less time to write and I was in the final push to get my apocabigbang done so I'm going to have to try and squeeze it all in on the weekend. Not to mention this year's Big Bang plus I've got like, three other gift-stories that are ALMOST done but not quite.

I don't get to write anymore because between work (where I'm at for probably 10-11 hours a day plus the two hours it takes me to drive there and back) and the gym and other exercise-related activities (because I'm in that final push to lose the last 10kgs of the 50kgs I am losing and I need to basically ramp up my exercise to achieve it) I just have no energy left. I had to take today off because I have an upset stomach of doom that I think was brought on from being basically overtired and stressed.

I'm just feeling... sad at the moment. It's probably mostly because I'm just generally run down. Whenever I get overtired I also start having vivid nightmares which doesn't help. My parents tag-teamed me today on speaker phone to say they were concerned that I was doing too much.

*takes deep breath*

I just need to keep telling myself that it's not forever. I just need to get this one big life-changing thing done with so everything else will fall into place.

In happier news, I will definitely be responding to the lovely comments about the second robot!Dean fic. I'm just relieved people didn't want to lynch me when the story didn't exactly... finish. I'll also end on a much happier note with some recs. (From the NON time I have to read at the moment).

fleshflutter has started a new J2 AU WIP of doom and it is SPECTACULAR. Rule 26. Head on over and cheerlead.

Being Human fic - Generalisations which is George/Mitchell awkward first-time and I am in LOVE with how entangled_now writes them. I love accidentally finding a new (to me!) Supernatural author and from this I found she writes SPN and she has a bunch of Sam/Lucifer that I never knew I wanted but devoured so check it out.

The only j2_everafter fic I've been able to read so far but ADORED was indysaur's and behind this door... which is J2 Monsters Inc and no words will describe how perfect and adorable this is adequately enough.

I have a crap load of stuff bookmarked so expect more recs very soon!

Comments

[tanpopo03.livejournal.com]

Wow, sorry to hear your so stressed! How come you've to spend such long hours at work? Is it just a really busy time right now or is that the norm? Cause... that is not healthy. *chimes in with your parents*

*hides*

Anyhow, I hope you'll find so time for yourself, soon and get to relax some!

[kellifer-fic.livejournal.com]

Long hours because there's usually me and someone else doing my specific work and there's just me at the moment so I'm trying to be two people. Blah.

I've taken another day today just to try and recharge.

[tabaqui]

*hugs*

Just breathe, bay-bee. And yeah, you really need to take some you-time. How much time until this 'life changing' thing is complete?

*breathe breathe breathe*

[kellifer-fic.livejournal.com]

Hopefully I'll be hitting my goal weight around June-ish and I can scale back. (pardon the pun!!)

*cuddles*

[tabaqui]

Ah. Then - you need to say 'i'm going home' now at work more often! Don't work yourself to death, bay-bee - we miss you around here!
*hugs*

[beatrice_otter]

First thing you need to do is take care of yourself. Then worry about fandom stuff when real life is in order. Fandom should be fun, not stress.

[kellifer-fic.livejournal.com]

It's not really stressing me, I'm just getting stressed that I don't have time for the things I really enjoy. :)

[dotfic.livejournal.com]

What you're trying to do sounds exhausting. Hope it gets better soon!

I always feel out of sorts when I can't write and sometimes it's not a time issue it's a mental energy thing, and it's a relief when it's not a struggle.

[kellifer-fic.livejournal.com]

I know! I've just read a couple of amazing stories lately and just wish I had the capacity for it at the moment.

[sams1ra.livejournal.com]

*hugs you*
(cuz it looks like you need it)
*hugs you some more*

[kellifer-fic.livejournal.com]

*cuddles*

[yasminke.livejournal.com]

You probably are doing too much, and might need to scale things back for a week to rest properly, but I have got to say --

Kudos to you on the fitness/weight loss. That is amazing. Well done.

[kellifer-fic.livejournal.com]

I've taken another day so hopefully I will feel more human after that.

Thank you! I spent like, ten years wishing I was smaller and then just woke up one day and realised I just had to do it myself.

[yasminke.livejournal.com]

Might take more than one day -- listen to your body and those dreams. There's plenty of evidence that suggests taking a vacation from the gym revs your body up for a return.

I think your weight loss journey is amazing and inspiring. I'm still trying to lose my last 3-5 kilos, two years after I hit that plateau. I've told my body just to shift it upwards, or distribute it more aesthetically, but the body -- she ain't listening.

[oxoniensis.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[kellifer-fic.livejournal.com]

*squishes you*

[gunznammo2.livejournal.com]

Thanks for taking the time to put these recs up. And hope things start running smoother for you in the future. :) Be Well!

[kellifer-fic.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[earthquakedream.livejournal.com]

Have they blocked email? Because you can always write in an email draft and keep saving it. That's what I had to do back in high school.

I really really hope you get a chance to finish it because I desperately want that fic haha. <3 And I hope everything starts working out for you soon!

[kellifer-fic.livejournal.com]

Yep, all external email is blocked. Yahoo, gmail, everything. My work basically takes a prevention rather than punishment stance. No Youtube or twitter or facebook and they even blocked ebay. Blah.

[earthquakedream.livejournal.com]

That's so lame! Especially when you have to work that long every day. D:

[kellifer-fic.livejournal.com]

I know! :

[amalthia]

are you able to bring a usb stick to work? I've been writing in MS Word and saving to my usb stick every night. There is also another online word program by adobe I think? http://www.adobe.com/acom/buzzword/ not sure if it would be blocked or not?

Hugs.

[too-rational.livejournal.com]

*sneaks in*

*hugs and pets and cuddles and feeds comfort foods*

*sneaks out*