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SOW (hahahaa... sow...)
I feel like I haven't actually written anything for ages which is... stoopid because Big Bang is like, 20k. (I actually wrote 20,500 words. I'm all about the scraping in yo. When I was editing I was also having tiny panics about removing enough words that I wouldn't qualify anymore... ha!).
Anyway! As I was saying, I'm not sure why being devoted to one long story has made my brain forget that it's STILL writing. I guess it weirds me out that I used to produce 2-3 stories a week if not more and now I just... don't. Part of it is no time and I'm worried part of it is me completely running out of ideas. I have stuff I haven't finished but I'm afraid to look at them because I'm starting to think my muse will be sitting on the couch, sipping hot chocolate and wearing Let's Get Physical legwarmers, telling me she's really quite tired, has a headache and isn't in the mood.
I would feel better if a downturn in my fanfic was an upswing in my original work but... it isn't. I just don't feel like getting on the computer when I get home. Currently because of the great weight loss extravaganza, my life is work, PT training, sleep, repeat.
SOM
My skin is finally calming down, my hair is behaving and me and my body are more like second season Paris vs. Rory rather than first season. (Kind of grudging tolerance rather than out and out loathing and I haven't tried to set my body up with CMM yet and... you know, this made more sense inside my head and probably should have stayed there).
I'm going to Queensland for an actual holiday in like a resort and everything in 2 weeks which I haven't done for YEARS and I'm looking forward to it. I actually had to confirm the hotel had a gym which... I think I'm a little obsessed... heh.
Life is... if not great at the moment at least good.
It's been a long time.
I feel like I haven't actually written anything for ages which is... stoopid because Big Bang is like, 20k. (I actually wrote 20,500 words. I'm all about the scraping in yo. When I was editing I was also having tiny panics about removing enough words that I wouldn't qualify anymore... ha!).
Anyway! As I was saying, I'm not sure why being devoted to one long story has made my brain forget that it's STILL writing. I guess it weirds me out that I used to produce 2-3 stories a week if not more and now I just... don't. Part of it is no time and I'm worried part of it is me completely running out of ideas. I have stuff I haven't finished but I'm afraid to look at them because I'm starting to think my muse will be sitting on the couch, sipping hot chocolate and wearing Let's Get Physical legwarmers, telling me she's really quite tired, has a headache and isn't in the mood.
I would feel better if a downturn in my fanfic was an upswing in my original work but... it isn't. I just don't feel like getting on the computer when I get home. Currently because of the great weight loss extravaganza, my life is work, PT training, sleep, repeat.
SOM
My skin is finally calming down, my hair is behaving and me and my body are more like second season Paris vs. Rory rather than first season. (Kind of grudging tolerance rather than out and out loathing and I haven't tried to set my body up with CMM yet and... you know, this made more sense inside my head and probably should have stayed there).
I'm going to Queensland for an actual holiday in like a resort and everything in 2 weeks which I haven't done for YEARS and I'm looking forward to it. I actually had to confirm the hotel had a gym which... I think I'm a little obsessed... heh.
Life is... if not great at the moment at least good.
It's been a long time.